Saturday, December 20, 2008

Snow Day

With all the snow we've gotten this week, we brought Sophia out for her first sledding adventure!

Riding to the hill

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Sleddin with Dad
Taking on the hill alone!



Sleddin with Mom
That was fun!
Riding home in style

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Trust Me

God has been graciously teaching me a lot about trust lately. He taught me to trust in a very visible way this week, and I was very excited this morning to see it.

Once again, my milk supply was dwindling (I have always had issues with this). I began to worry. I started nursing and pumping more often, hoping to give it a boost. The more I tried, the less milk my body made. I got increasingly frustrated as the days passed and I was seeing no results for my efforts. I started guzzling water. Still, my supply only depleted further. Yesterday was the culmination of my frustration, as I was only making about 1/4 ounce TOTAL from both sides in the course of 2 hours. I began to wallow in my frustration, and self pity at not being able to supply nourishment for my baby. Then, the Holy Spirit must have intervened. In the midst of my tears, I realized I had not been trusting God at all in this situation. I began to pray.

Father, I am going to trust you to supply just enough milk for Jazlyn as she needs it.

This morning I woke up and pumped 4 ounces. Two hours later, I pumped 4 more ounces. And so it has gone all day. I not only have enough to feed Jazlyn, there is extra in the fridge.

Wow.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Yum Yum

Can you guess what "flavors" of marker she ate?


Miss Independance

Me: "Sophie, go bathe yourself please."
Soph: "No problem, Mom."
Me: "Wash your hair, and scrub your body. Oh, and make sure you get your belly button too."

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

Re-Creating


"Every time God speaks into our cold, dead hearts, He's recreating again... Don't be afraid to speak, because God is going to use your misplaced words to awaken another person's heart." Tim Porter

It has been my prayer over the last month (well, last year to be honest), that God would awaken my heart and grow me as a Christian. I have tried again and again to pursue God wholeheartedly. But have failed again and again. My heart often felt hard. Dead. But as Tim recently taught, God is the ONLY one capable of changing our hearts. My heart.

This month must have been God's perfect timing, to awaken my heart and make it alive. I have felt more spiritually stretched over the past month than I have over the past year. And it is not easy. I have had to remind myself daily that God did not promise it would be easy. In fact, He promises it won't be easy. But, I am finally at the point where I am glad for the difficulty. Without pain and trials, there could be no growth. No dependency on God to get me through.

"See, the point is not to put it ourselves out there and pretend like we have it all together. The point is to say that we don't have it all together, but we know Someone who does." -Porter

I have never been in prayer so much as I am now. I finally know what it means to "pray without ceasing." The world around me is crumbling. I am finally realizing that I have been too. I do not have it all together. I am good at pretending that I do. But a sweet relief comes with the realization that it's okay that I don't have it all together. That is why Christ went to the cross.

Though many difficulties lay waiting in the road ahead, I'm finally learning that I was never meant to get through them alone.

Consolidating

I have been consolidating a lot lately. Cutting down the bulk. Doing anything to make our busy, overly-detailed, hectic life a little more simple.

So.

I decided I am going to consolidate my blogs too. I am (obviously) no longer able to keep up with posting on three seperate blogs. And rather than not blogging at all, I am going to only post on this blog from now on. So check here for updates on the family, the babies, my thoughts, exciting news, trials we face, and any other tidbits I find time to write about.