God has been graciously teaching me a lot about trust lately. He taught me to trust in a very visible way this week, and I was very excited this morning to see it.
Once again, my milk supply was dwindling (I have always had issues with this). I began to worry. I started nursing and pumping more often, hoping to give it a boost. The more I tried, the less milk my body made. I got increasingly frustrated as the days passed and I was seeing no results for my efforts. I started guzzling water. Still, my supply only depleted further. Yesterday was the culmination of my frustration, as I was only making about 1/4 ounce TOTAL from both sides in the course of 2 hours. I began to wallow in my frustration, and self pity at not being able to supply nourishment for my baby. Then, the Holy Spirit must have intervened. In the midst of my tears, I realized I had not been trusting God at all in this situation. I began to pray.
Father, I am going to trust you to supply just enough milk for Jazlyn as she needs it.
This morning I woke up and pumped 4 ounces. Two hours later, I pumped 4 more ounces. And so it has gone all day. I not only have enough to feed Jazlyn, there is extra in the fridge.